Saint Heather

WE HAVE OUR MIRACLE!!!

Nurse Heather is amazing.

I don't know how she did it, I don't know what she said... but our clinic's office manager (who wouldn't return my calls, and completely ignored every attempt at contact that I made) is going to let us pay our portion in January.

I hope I'm not jumping the gun here, but all indications are that it's a done deal. I even clarified with the billing department today. They have the same impression I do, although none of us have heard it from the horse's mouth, so-to-speak. She's written it all out, and set the terms. Everything short of just saying it outright.

I had my follow-up appointment with Dr. H today. He told me that I am "a doctor's worst nightmare" because my cycle was "full of surprises." He would like to up my dose to 300 iu's of Gonal-F, and we will just watch it all very closely. He's still pretty worried that I will overstim, given my high E2 levels. It seemed that they were so closely in check with the FSH dose that we can't push it too much harder without just being stupid about it and putting me at too high a risk. The ICSI should tell us if it's a sperm or egg issue. If we have a higher fert. rate than we know it was most likely a sperm issue but if the rate is about the same, then obviously, it's my eggs. I feel like this is a reasonable way to diagnose it without risking too much, if anything.

Overall, I left with a great feeling about where the cycle is headed. I feel much more confident with Dr. H than I did with the RE I met with last week. I feel like I am ready. I know how much is riding on this, but I feel that I am more prepared. Before, we thought we had a backup plan. This time, we'll be happy with 2 good embies. We'll take what we can get.

Thanks for the prayers. I am so grateful for them. Please keep them coming, but this time for success.

I don't want to sound selfish, God, but I'd really appreciate just one. more. miracle!