Sunday, October 18, 2009

Beta 4

So, I don't know what to think about it now.

My number today was 141.76. It more than tripled, almost quadrupled.

What should I be thinking right now? According to the lab print out I am barely within normal range for this gestational age. I think they are calibrated a little differently than most. I know that my numbers are still pretty low and I'm not out of the woods, but it's so hard not to get excited when I see increases that are "normal" (at least doubling.)

The nurses and RE's are out of the office today, so I don't know what the plan is until tomorrow.

On another note, my progesterone dropped 10 points to 36. That is still an okay number right? I'm wondering if I should up my progesterone dose a little tomorrow. What do you think?

I'm so numb today. Earlier when I got the results, I almost passed out. I keep thinking that the next beta will be the one that screams, "MISCARRIAGE!" I am so grateful for all the time I have with this little bean, but it is completely exhausting to think that today could be my last day with him.

I'm just hoping this isn't all some cruel joke.


JuliaS said...

I'm sorry Meim - I wish things were more clear cut at this point. I know that fluctuating between hope, despair and having no idea what the heck is going on is so very frustrating and stressful.

Things that they might be thinking - slow starter, late implantation, later ovulation. My doc always wanted my prog levels over 20 at this point, so 36 is still very solid.

Holding on for you and sending all my best wishes and prayers.

Kahla said...

Stopping by from LFCA and sending lots of prayers that you get nothing but good news from here on out (I've been there w/the BETAs, it's a nightmare)! Hugs

Melody said...

I freaked over dropping progesterone too, but my RE's nurse said that your progesterone fluctuates all the time so not to worry if it drops as long as it does not drop below 20 for an ART pregnancy, 15 I think for an unassisted (never had any experience with an unassisted though).

Kate said...

Here from LFCA- I know how nerve wracking this and wanted to let you know there are a lot of out here rooting for you.

Sue said...

Oh, beta hell. Hoping for good, clear cut indications that this little bean will be healthy and stick around!

(Here from LFCA.)