Saturday, October 31, 2009

The end of it...

Well, things didn't go quite as planned. I am actually updating from the hospital.

Yesterday afternoon I ended up in the ER with a pain in my side that I couldn't explain. My doctors had all told me that if I had any new pains that I should go to the ER. When I first got here, things were hurting, but it got better as I waited for lab results, etc. Then, because I was feeling good, they were going to let me go home. They decided to do an ultrasound just to be safe.

About 1/2 later I was wheeled into the operating room for an emergency laparoscopy. The ultrasound showed a 5 cm mass in my right tube. When they got in there during surgery, they were shocked because my tube had actually ruptured. The mass was part blood clot, part baby, and then there was blood pooling in my abdomen and uterus. They were able to save my tube (they didn't even have to cut it) because of the position of the ectopic. He said that the tube just "looked like a snake that had swallowed a mouse" and he was able to just "milk it" until it came out without cutting. The rupture was at the end of the tube. They removed the pregnancy, and also did a D&C.

They have decided to keep me here an extra night because my labs show that I may still be bleeding internally, and we are having a hard time keeping my pain managed. It actually hurts much worse now that it did before the surgery. My incisions don't hurt, just the area of my right ovary/tube. The doctor who did the surgery was pretty stunned that I wasn't in more pain when I got here, and that it had even ruptured given the low hcg levels I had been getting. He said that most ruptures happen after the beta levels have reached 10,000, and mine was only at 769.

Thank you for all your kind words, thoughts, and prayers through this whole roller coaster. We don't really know yet what we are going to do when this all settles down. My emotions are pretty fried. I will try to update again when I know more about the new labs, and whether or not I will be going home in the morning. I'm sorry if this doesn't all make sense. I am on 3 different pain killers, so I'm sure it's probably a spacey post.

10 comments:

Penny said...

Crap. I'm so sorry for everything you're going through. Take care of yourself. I'm glad the tube was salvaged.

Mo and Will said...

God. I'm so sorry. I'm really glad you're going to be ok physically and didn't lose your tube. But I'm so sorry for your loss and that you're going through this.

JuliaS said...

Meim, I am so sorry. I had a tubal pg rupture on me several years ago. After surgery, I found I was also in pain still just as you are. It gets a lot better after 24-48 hours. I truly wish things had ended differently for you. Sending you all my best prayers and hopes.

{{hugs}}

Elizabeth said...

I'm so very sorry. How devastating.

wifey said...

oh jeez. I am so sorry that you are going through this - when I had my ectopic I kept myself drugged for days. it helped with the physical pain but also with the emotional stuff too.

Get well soon. Take good care of yourself. If you ever want to vent to someone who's been on that particular roller coastre email me at wifey.to.hubby@gmail.com

Anonymous said...

so so sorry for your loss. I am glad they were able to save your tube but the loss hurts nonetheless.

Here from LFCA

cowgirltn said...

Sorry for your loss and prayers for a easy recovery.

areyoukiddingme said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. I hope you have a quick recovery.

Alaina said...

Oh Meim, I just cried as I read your post. I want this to happen for you so badly, and I was hoping and praying this would go your way - finally. I love you so much, and just pray the Lord will bless you with another Baby. You two deserve it. Let me if there is something I can do for you... that would be of any help. I would love to even bring you a dinner if that helps. Good luck, and I'll talk to you soon.

JuliaS said...

Thinking of you - hoping physically you are recovering and feeling better. Emotionally, I know takes longer. Just wanted to let you know I was here and thinking of you.