Friday, October 23, 2009

Black Friday

My beta started falling today. There was nothing on the ultrasound.

RE says my lining is very thick, so I have to follow up with him on Wednesday. He doesn't expect me to actually miscarry for at least a week, because my progesterone is still very high.

So now, I just get to wait, knowing I will never meet the child I am carrying. It is so hard to say "goodbye" before we ever get a chance to say "hello."

19 comments:

Justina said...

Oh, I am SO sorry to hear that. I've gone through miscarriages as well and it's devastating. Big hugs to you.

Elizabeth said...

I am so, so sorry. This must be devastating.

Eileen said...

My heart breaks for you. I have been through 3 miscarriages myself. If you ever need someone to talk to who knows what you are going through, feel free to email me: eileenburnsjin@yahoo.com. I will keep you in my prayers at this difficult time. *HUGS*

Michelle said...

I'm sorry. You're in my prayers too.

Mrs. Higrens said...

I'm sorry. It really really stinks.

Heidi said...

I am so sorry for your loss.

All my love and big warm hugs.

Anonymous said...

I am so so sorry. This is very painful. You are in my thoughts.

JamieD said...

I am so very sorry. I have sat in the RE's office only to see an empty u/s screen and I know how hard it is to grieve for something when you barely had time to celebrate.

Holding you in my heart . . .

Fran said...

I'm so sorry for your loss, I've been through it as well and only time will help a bit. Much love, Fran (LFCA)

wifey said...

Oh no! I am so so sorry. I'll be thinking of you.

Mo and Will said...

Just seeing this now. I am so, so sorry.

Mo

areyoukiddingme said...

I'm so sorry for your loss...

Michelle said...

I am so so sorry for your loss. I've been through this 4 times myself and I know how bad it hurts. sending you hugs and good thoughts.

Jenn said...

I'm so sorry. There isn't any words that will take away the pain right now, trust me, after five losses, I feal like I would have figured them out by now and could pass them on to you. Sorry again.

LFCA

Meim said...

Thanks for all your kind words. I have felt very buoyed up by them all.

I am not giving up yet. I had an epiphany on Saturday, so we're just going to ride this out.

It's not over till it's over!

Aunt Becky said...

Holding you close and saying my prayers.

Rach said...

You're so right it is so hard to say goodbye before you've been able to say hello. I've had to do it 5 times and it just gets harder each time.

Please know that you're being thought of xxx

Celia said...

I am so very sorry.

Chickenpig said...

I'm terribly sorry for your loss. Like many of the other people here, I have also been in your shoes. The wait is awful. Hang in there.