A few weeks ago I was on my way to yet another monitoring appointment. It was at the tail end of stims, and I was dreading my encounter with the "wand", if you will. If you recall, I have an ovary that prides itself on being able to disappear whenever it so chooses - this makes those scans a bit more... um, challenging.
As I was driving to the clinic I was pleading with my ovary (don't judge) to please cooperate. "I really don't want to cry today" I told it. Then, my mind wandered and I began to talk to all of my reproductive organs. Really, there was no point in pissing one of them off by not including them in my heart-felt pleas! In the middle of my rant, Adam Lambert's "Whataya Want From Me" came on the radio. Have you heard that song? No? Sad.** Let me enlighten you:
I found it so amusing. I laughed so hard I cried. (So much for that goal!)
So, forevermore this will by my IVF-song. Because, really? Who can't imagine our poor, overworked, under-appreciated ovaries screaming this very thing every time we stab yet another needle into ourselves with the hope that we can prod those little suckers along? Poor things.
"Whataya want from me!"
I hear ya, Little Ladies. "I won't let you down" you say.
Well, thanks for keeping your promise. Because after a rocky start, I'm happy to tell you that as of today... I'm pregnant. 5w1d. I have officially been released from beta-hell, (with a standing order waiting at the lab in case I need reassurance) and our first ultrasound is scheduled for Tuesday to verify placement. With a history of ectopic, they wanted to have a look a little earlier than usual.
Forgive my earlier freak out. Betas weren't doing exactly what we were hoping for (they were close), but with yesterday's rise of 125% in 48 hours... all is well - we hope. Progesterone is now at a "makemegagconstantlyanddon'teventhinkaboutsleepingonyourstomach" level of 132.34.
We are hopeful, but cautious. RPL can spoil any BFP. But, hey. It's Christmas right? Why not celebrate (just a little)? We are hoping to tell our families by New Year's Eve, after we've heard a nice, strong heartbeat. Oh, please. PLEASE let us make it that far!
**You really should come out from under your rock once in a while. =)
14 comments:
CONGRATS!!! I will Continue to pray that all continues to go well! Im freaking out waiting to find out. Cheated with the POAS and did not have very happy results ;(, but hopefully my beta will tell me something else on Saturday.
So so happy for you but understand your reservations. I'll be here...
yah congrats!! Praying everything continues to go well!!
YAY finally the news I have been waiting and hoping for. I suspected that was the case! Can't wait for scan results :)
Congratulations!!! Praying for a perfect u/s!!
Here's hoping you get that wonderfully strong heartbeat!!
~x~
Congratulations!!! Hoping so much for you that things continue smoothly! I'm currently in beta hell and hoping I am soon released as well:)
~LFCA
I've been thinking of you for the last couple of days HOPING you got good news. I'm so excited for you! Now we both need to get more good news next week on our ultrasounds. I don't know about you, but I'm terrified. For me, the good news highs last just two days, then it's right back to worrying. I wish my doctors and insurance would let me have a good news fix every two days :( Waiting is brutal.
Thanks for posting this! So excited to hear good news from you... will wait along with you with bated breath, lots of hope and good wishes.
(crawling out from under my rock)... thanks for sharing the song and video! I want it to be my IVF song, especially if it means a BFP!
Wishing you all the best for next week's scan.
(from LFCA)
I am crying happy tears for you. You deserve this, friend. You deserve this.
Congratulations! I am very happy for you!!
You're right...RPL spoils a BFP. You're also right though...go ahead and celebrate (at least just a little).
Oh I'm so happy!!!!!!! I will keep praying for you and I cannot wait till Tues. I just know it will be a good day. Love you!!
congratulations! I completely understand your concerns, I am the same way. I am desperately hoping this is your Christmas miracle and you will see that lovely heartbeat soon :)
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