Pretty sure this cycle is a bust. I'm still getting stark white BFNs so I'm not even going to bother with the beta tomorrow. Honestly, if I were pregnant right now, I wouldn't want to know. Low numbers are worse than a negative, expecially knowing my history and what always follows them.
I thought I'd be a mess about it, but I'm not. Actually, I kind of feel like taking a victory lap. Afterall, I DID IT! I went through with the cycle, and the PIOs, and I didn't even die! Who'd have thunk? This "first" cycle was hard for me. So very, very hard. I was so scared that I was going to get pregnant, and have a complete repeat of Oct./Nov. I was almost planning on it. It may sound crazy, but I wouldn't be surprised if I have some form of Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. But - we're not going to dwell. I did it, damnit! I did not let this beat me.
So take that you sonofabitch, baby-stealing, heartbreaking, family-wrecking, mind-numbingly awful, infertility! I hate you! And I will do everything in my power to BRING YOU DOWN! You're not going to stop me! This bitch is on a roll!