Monday, November 22, 2010

Here's Where I Freak Out

The fluid in my uterus is back. If it stays there, transfer will be cancelled.

So, here's the plan.

I have a few follicles that look like they could stand a bit more FSH (we have measured at least 14 of good size already, but want to squeak out a few more big ones), so I will do one last shot of 450 iu tonight with my trigger. Also, my RE gave me one dose of an antagonist to see if that will help with my risk of OHSS, and as a side effect help get rid of that fluid. He has never tried this before, but learned about a study done in Korea that showed very promising results. The antagonist was actually used to help prevent OHSS, but the side effects would also include lowering my E2, which will subsequently get rid of the fluid... at least that's his theory. Of course it's much more complicated than that, but I was kind of in la-la land during the discussion.

I had this same fluid issue last time, but luckily it cleared up on its own. But now, my E2 levels are much higher than last time (they rose by over 1000 overnight!), and we didn't do the FSH with the trigger during my last cycle.

UGH! My head is spinning. I need this to by my last cycle, ya know? I need to be done. I don't know if I can handle having to do an FET later. Not only that, but how in the hell would we come up with $4k more?

I know that it's not a done deal and that my body could get rid of this nuisance fluid before transfer, but right now... I have to let this out. I've been super positive all day, but I have to get the "what if's" out.

Thanks for reading my vent. I needed it.

Oh, and if you could stand to send up a prayer or two on our behalf, I'd be eternally grateful!


AnxiousMummyto3 said...

Oh no!! I am so sorry this is happening and will be hoping and praying that it all works out. You shouldn't have to go through an FET as well if it can be avoided!!
Will be checking regularly for updates and to see if any pick up has been scheduled. Thinking of you. ((((HUGS))))

Anonymous said...

Rooting for a smooth, successful transfer!!!

wifey said...

I'll be praying (well, in my own way!) for you.

I hope this cycle works out for you.

BU said...

So um, do you need to come sleep over because the weather is supposed to be ugly in the morning. Lots of prayers and love coming your way...

CJ said...

Wow, I was suppose to do my ER tomorrow as well, but my doctor called me at midnight last night because of my blood work and had me cancel my trigger shot :(.

Carli said...

That must be so frustrating! I hope that the fluid clears up and that you are able to proceed with the remainder of your IVF. Good Luck!