Sunday, March 14, 2010

Here's a shocker!

BFN... again.

I can't say I'm surprised, but still! This sucks!

DH and I have decided to move ahead with a medicated IUI cycle. I'm beyond nervous about it, and have been having nightmares about high order multiples since we made our choice. I just keep reminding myself that I always have this horrible anxiety before we try anything new.

I guess I'm to the point where I have decided enough is enough. 8 natural IUI's. That's enough, right? I am still very, very, VERY scared about it, and trying to justify it in my mind. So far, natural IUI's have been fairly "successful" ( I used the term loosely) in that I have managed to become pregnant 3 out of 8 cycles where we have done it. Which is actually a higher percentage than is usual. Our problem has evolved from being not being able to get pregnant, to not being able to stay pregnant. Will injectibles have any bearing on that at all? No, probably not. So... there is the conundrum I am faced with. It feels like a logical next step, but is it really necessary? I just kind of feel like we have to do something! I just hope that this really is the right "something".

So, c'mon CD1. Let's get this show on the road! The faster we can get through this cycle, the faster I can relax. UGH!


Annie said...

Sorry to hear it's another negative. It's always so depressing, even though it's not a big surprise. I get my negative this Friday. Sigh.

I hope the injectibles will work for you!

The Prices said...

Hopefully this will lead to good news; you never know! Keep us updated on the meds and the details so we know how you are doing!

AnxiousMummyto3 said...

Oh, sweetie. I am disappointed for you but kind of excited that our cycles are so close. Is AF here yet?? I am on CD3. Onto the meds-I think this is a great idea. Here's a shocker back at you-how do you keep reading my mind??? LOL. I have been having the same argument with myself. The IUI I'm having this month will be unmedicated but if I'm onto another one in April it will be (medicated) I think. Also I hear ya on the "I hope this is the right something." It is so hard to make these calls, isn't it, not knowing what the magic formula will be. This is definitely worth giving it a shot, though.
Have you taken Clomid before? I hope you don't have too many side effects!
I want you to win this race so bad....please let this work!
Love you heaps

AnxiousMummyto3 said...

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jill said...

Sorry about your BFN :( Wishing you lots of luck with your next cycle!

This is my first time at your blog and I just wanted to say I love your colors and the background pattern. Beautiful!

niobe said...

Sigh. Thinking of you.

Katie said...

I am sorry for the negative but glad you are moving forward.

As a fellow RPL-er, I can tell you that my RE did medicated IUI cycles to create "optimum" eggs for the best quality embryos. So, there actually might be some treatment within the treatment with medicated cycles.

Good luck!