Tuesday, October 5, 2010

A Little "Off"

Something felt weird today. I couldn't figure it out for the life of me. This is NOT my favorite month, and I have been dreading October for a very long time. I have felt like I'm on the verge of tears all day.

It didn't hit me until after dinner.

Today I should be singing "Happy Birthday", and watching my child tear into his/her very first birthday cake.

Instead, I'm sitting here working the numbers and praying that I can make things work in time for my next... my last... cycle. (kind of forgot about all the meds involved!)

So, you've got my undivided attention, Little One. I'm all yours for the rest of the night.

We miss you Sweet Baby.


Annie said...

I hadn't realized before that you and I both had early miscarriages in February 2009. So we both should be singing happy birthday to our little ones right about now. Here's hoping we'll both get pregnant from IVF #2 in November and that we'll both be celebrating the happiest birthdays ever next year! ((Hugs))

AnxiousMummyto3 said...

I'm so sorry you had to miss out on that precious moment. Praying and hoping this next cycle does the trick and you'll soon be celebrating another wonderful first birthday for real. I'm in your corner, always :)